Sunday, August 26, 2012

An answer from the setting sun

I stare at the setting sun,
Trying to give a new meaning to my life,
The sun sets, the moon rises,
I, yet to find, the meaning, choose to stare,
Stare on,Till the sun rises and sets again

With every sunset, I see a new beginning
A new chapter of my life,
The chapter which remains unopened,
For reasons unknown to me,
I search through my mind to find the reasons,
They deceive me

And, so I wait yet again for another sunset,
For this time, I am determined,
To find answers to all the unknown things
That have enveloped me,
I do find, in the bright glowing sun,
The answers, The reasons
And, give my mind a breather!

The Happiness Within!

My blogs earlier used to be either poetry or my comments on something related to what's happening around the world. But now I have realised, after seeing other blogs as well that I should write on anything and everything under the sun! Till the time, they are my own, what's the big deal about it!

This post I dedicate towards 'Happiness." Many of you who will read this post might wonder what's wrong with this writer, why is she writing about something many people would have already written, re-written, shared about! But that's what my blog is all about. I don't care if someone has already written about the post I write today. For what I care is, I will write something.

I have always wondered about that one moment when a person feels 'happy to the core." Happiness can come from anything and everything. We just need to look around and see. We can be happy when we are home. We can be happy when we are at work. We can be happy when with family and friends; We can be happy when stuck in a lonely corner with a book and a cup of tea or coffee. What really matters is, how, where and when do we find this happiness?

It is not necessary that we feel happy at every given point of time. But to feel happy even at the saddest moments in life shows how strong we are. I feel happy, when I sing, when I write even if it is crap, when I talk over phone to my parents, when I spend time with my husband, and even when I am at work. However, there are times when howsoever hard I try, i cannot force myself to be happy. Precisely then comes the point that happiness needs to be in sync with your mind.

Our mind and heart are too fickle and maybe the root cause of all the confusions, sadness or happiness in our lives. I am happy one moment and the other moment, tears trickle down my eyes for god knows what all reasons. However, I feel that's a part and parcel of life. We cannot be happy always. For god also wants us to feel every emotion in equal ways! And, I have realised the same as well.

I shall laugh, live, cry, yell, dream, dance, sing, read and do everything I want to keep myself happy and also to move myself away from the sadness that keeps shrouding me and my mind every now and then. And, what better than writing a blog!!! The best way to vent out your emotions without any hurdle and without anyone "blocking" you from doing so!

Once Again!

So after a long wait, i take to writing this blog post. I don't know what took me so long to write. Writing is something which I always wanted to do and loved doing it. However, off late, I have become 'lazy' to even sign into my blog accounts to write something.

I open the laptop, open the MS Word doc and then close it again without 'saving' anything in the document. Why? I do not know. Never before had I taken aversion to writing. It is not that I do not want to write. But it is this laziness that has struck big time and hard. I had so many things to write. So many things to share. However never took the courage to pen down anything. Everything became a 'tweet' or a 'Facebook' status!

I still ask myself what is it that is stopping me from writing. I know, if i wish to, I can write and that too very well. However, if I take a long sabbatical from writing, my ideas will fade through just like my memories. And, I do not want that. For fading away of ideas is something i dread a lot.

So, today after five months, I log into my blog account, only to write again. I know this post may read as nothing unusual but at the end of the day, it is something for me, which I have finally penned down. And, I hope with this post, I will be able to pen down even more and on a regular basis.

I say that again, because, until I started writing this post; my mind was restless. I was upset, wanted to run away somewhere far off. However, writing, yet again brought me the solace. I could 'speak' to my colleagues. I could throw the 'smile' without forcing myself to do so. I could vent out something of the everything that was going on in my mind. And, I hope to continue with the same.