Indelible Musings

How do you feel when your smartphone dies? Is that feeling similar to someone precious you may have lost in life? Does it break your heart? That you burnt a hole in your pocket for purchasing that tiny little (or the size of your palm) device can surely make your heart burn. But isn't it weird that a tiny little device has taken such an important place in your life. So much so that when it dies, you don't know what to do. You don't remember phone numbers of your friends. Even if you do, there is no point, as you wouldn't spend your precious money on sending an SMS or calling them because you don't have WhatsApp available. So what if you spent  thousands to buy that tiny little device that's taken up a giant proportion of your life? Precisely, this is what I realised in the past one week that my phone went dead. Nothing came to my rescue. Not even my Facebook status. Nobody read it (though I have over 600 friends on FB). Neither did I receive any call or SMS fro...

She was lying on the bed with her baby curled beside her. As the baby breastfed, her line of  thoughts waved from one thing to other. "Why are things like this?" "Am I really becoming an atheist?" "Will praying to God really solve my problem?"- her trail of thoughts broke as her child detached himself from her feed and slept off peacefully. She slowly tucked herself out of the bed and walked towards the hall.  Standing in front of the door that opened to the temple room in her house, she pondered whether to open or not. It had been months since she opened that door, lit a dia or agarbatti. Finally, she opened the door after much hesitation initially. She sat down to clean the floor that was filled with cobwebs and dirt, and the dried leaves of the flower that was last kept for performing the morning rituals. Having cleaned the floor and the shelf on which were kept frames of not one but several gods and godesses, she sat down with her hands perched togeth...

What is that heavy feeling in the heart? Have you felt that before? Have you noticed when it happens? Any particular time of the day, or any anxious moment, or just all through the day you feel your heart is heavy with a feeling that just refuses to come out. What do you do in such a circumstance? Do you pour your heart out to someone? Or do you tuck that feeling in your heart and go to bed with eyes wet? Or do you keep it within yourself till the time it just explodes and there is no way you can hold them back? Do you feel the weight of that feeling in your heart, now that you are reading this post? You do. Even if you don't, you would soon after. My question or rather my point is, why does the heart feel so heavy at times? No, this is no love game. But a game bigger than you can probably imagine or you would want to imagine. It is not just always about love, breakups, lost friendships. Our heart bleeds for more reasons than one. It can be your failure to convey your feelings o...